A Boat So Big, I Never Find The Water

On five-story boat. A boat with many, many stairs. a boat like the old paper mill on Alcott. it is sunny and swaying. the stairs are almost like ladders. I spend most of my time looking for the people who are in my group. some people I met in Europe last summer are there but I feel embarrassed in front of them and keep hiding when I look out of the round portal doors and in on their on-deck campfire happiness. In my head is an object made of sticks and colorful string. Looking for Justin and Bradley. On a boat so big I can never find the water.

Height and Meat

I was only five feet tall. It was terrible. Everybody's huge eyes staring down at me.
At a festival in a park, all I wanted, over and over asking
for Milk & Sugar & Coffee
& Sugar & Milk & Coffee &
Coffee & Sugar & Milk
because it would make me grow.

6/27
On the cruise ship again. Somebody was touching my breasts. I was night blind, eating a turkey sandwich.

Teflon Regatta

There is this invention about boats that slide really well through bacon grease. There are no natural bacon grease lakes. What a bummer.

Another Boat

...near the port of Portland that really is on the ocean... which is connected to the Williamsburg bridge. This looks like a scene from Venice. If Venice were located in a vast, flourescently-lit country called "K-Mart." The Jesus and Mary Chain on loudspeakers somewhere, everything lit like a little league field. All the strangers milling by were wearing those shirt-dress things that are from India that I forget the name of. The boat sways and I periodically think of a description of a blonde woman's hips in the novel I was reading last night.

clinic-storm-cocoa-stone

There was a big boat.
A photo show around the world.
The boat is made of that peely soft wood that is like dehydrated moss.
In the neighborhood of
we were eating waxy chocolates
cheap like the plastic box they came in
but smooth on our tongues flat snapping cold